Does Nicole Kidman Find Moderation a Challenge? (Lame, but Still Looking for that First Australian Reader)

So yesterday morning I noticed that my knees were hurting while I was running on the treadmill.  I thought, immediately, “That probably doesn’t happen to Nicole Kidman or Naomi Watts … or even Russell Crowe … or that Crocodile Dundee guy.  Why me?” 

Anyway, it’s not such a big surprise that my knees might hurt … given that I’m about 15 pounds heavier than I ought to be, and maybe 30 pounds heavier than I’d LIKE to be.  So I rashly decided that I would start a fast.  I was going to blog about it yesterday morning, and even got a paragraph into the post, when I realized that that really wasn’t something I wanted to do rashly (and if rashly, certainly not right before the Superbowl and all those snacks)!

Why is it so difficult for me to be moderate?  That’s what this brings up for me.  Why swing from overindulging to fasting … and back again?  Extreme?  You bet!  I was listening to an interesting story on NHPR (that’s New Hampshire Public Radio … my demographic and proud of it) on Monday night.  It was a feed from BBC radio, and was a story about the current craze for detoxing.  Apparently I am not out of step with popular culture, in terms of wanting to ingest whatever I want to, and then deal with the consequences in some very structured/extreme (and hopefully quick) way, later.

I guess it’s called having your cake and eating it too.  And I guess I’d actually like to be a little less cliched and a little more adult at this stage of my life than that.  🙂

The less-than-adult parts of me want immediate gratification – and are really quite horribly impatient with the slow, steady work that has half a chance of actually getting me somewhere.  I want immediate gratification when I have a Hershey bar in my hand; and I also want immediate gratification when it’s almost time to put on a bathing suit.  Eat the candy NOW — and lose the weight FAST afterwards.  That’s the basic theory.  Oh, and did I also mention that the theory doesn’t work?

It’s no accident that the middle way is the revered path in so many spiritual traditions.  In part I’m guessing that has to do with the wisdom of the path – and in part, perhaps, its difficulty.  Balance is seen as something to strive for, and it seems to grant entry to ever deepening spiritual truths and layers of self-knowledge.  In no tradition that I have ever read about is impulsivity celebrated, nor is instant gratification sanctified.  There must be a reason for that!

So, rather than starting a fast yesterday (truthfully, it was the thought of no coffee and the headaches that would ensue that quickly put the kibosh on the idea) I tried to eat more moderately.  I lucked out a little bit, because I had a lot of meetings yesterday, so there were some good chunks of time when I actually COULDN’T eat.  I also successfully avoided what has become my habitual afternoon visit to our snack bar … where I will often impulsively buy two candy bars (at $.50 apiece, who could pass up the deal?). 

Unfortunately, as soon as I got home I downed several pretzels with some peanut butter, entirely thoughtlessly.  That’s what I’ll typically do.  Hold the line over a long span of time, and then without even realizing it, blow it all out of the water.  Ka Boom!  But at least I caught myself right afterwards.  Noticing is, after all, the first step. 

I did some work at the computer, went downstairs and watched a bit of the Florida Primary returns, rode the stationary bike for about 25 minutes, and then went into the kitchen and ate about three of those little miniature Mr. Goodbar’s.  Oops!  Clearly I am not safe wandering around on my own!  So, for safety’s sake, I headed to my room after that and crawled into bed with my book.  Moderation.  Hmmmmmmm!

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Great News! And Another Cool Thingie from My Sister … and a Totally Random Thought

The GREAT news is 🙂 George W. Bush gave his LAST State of the Union message last night.  Here’s Obama’s response.

Want to know what was happening the year you were born?  Check this out at the Infoplease site and click on your birth year!  You can also find information on events that occurred on your birthday, through the years.  For example … I was chagrined to learn that on my birthday in 2000 Katherine Harris certified Dubya as the winner of the Florida vote.  (Not that I feel personally responsible or anything …)

And here’s a totally random thought.  I wonder how I get someone from Tanzania, say, or Australia, to read my blog?  Mention Nicole Kidman?  (Or say something nasty about Tom Cruise?  Now THERE’S  a difficult stretch.)  Find a news story about Tanzania and publish it randomly?  Add a map?  This whole  Search Engine Optimization thing can be pretty gamey, huh?  It’s fascinating .. but definitely can present some small ethical dilemmas.  (But hell, now that I’ve mentioned Tanzania and Australia .. and Nicole and Tom … I might as well add them to my tags, right?  But adding Naomi Watts would not be okay … except that I just mentioned her.  So now it is, right?

Right.  🙂

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Pia in SI & Soccernet … and a Smidgeon of February Camp News … and a New Assistant!

Here’s a great article abouSundhage Stamp-1988t Pia from Sports Illustrated that someone just posted on BigSoccer.  (Thanks!)  And here’s another from ESPN’s Soccernet.  What a breath of fresh air … psychologically, tactically.  Hallelujah!  (No wonder Sweden put her on a stamp!)

And here’s a blurb about Brittany Taylor a Washingtonville, NY native (and U Conn player) who’s been called up for the February Camp.  Guess we’ll be getting the official list soon, since camp starts 2/1 … and the USWNT gets ready to head to Portugal for the Algarve Cup!

… and Pia has named Jillian Ellis as an assistant for the USWNT.  Seems a great move, as Ellis was widely considered a top candidate for the job that Pia ultimately (and happily) landed.  Meanwhile, Tony DiCicco will take over the U-20’s (Jillian’s former gig for USSF).

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Monday Morning (You Sure Look Fine)

Today I have NOTHING scheduled!  I probably shouldn’t say that, as it’ll just upset you if you’re reading this before heading out the door to start your work week.  It’s not that I won’t be doing stuff .. and not that some of it won’t be workish … but none of it is scheduled.  Somehow that makes it all feel a little more like play.  But why?  Is it merely the element of choice?  It’s something I’ve often wondered about – what makes something work and what makes it play – and why do we categorize activities in that way, anyway?

Meanwhile, quoting Fleetwood Mac always has a way of reminding me of the moment during the Democratic Convention all those many years ago when “Don’t Stop Thinking About Tomorrow” blasted from the dais and it felt like we were (maybe, maybe, maybe) actually starting a new era (although the Fleetwood Mac reunion thing probably should’ve been a clue).  Now it’s 2008 … a little more than a week before Super Tuesday.  Hillary’s challenge now is to reel Bill in … or there’s absolutely no way that anything she says or does can look remotely new … or her own, even.  He’s got to tamp it down.  I wonder if it’s too late.  Back in ’92 it felt new, but it wasn’t as new as it was packaged up to be.  Now?

This past weekend we had a visit from an old college friend (she’s not old … we’re not old … must be that the college is old!), her 12 year old son, and a friend of his.  The house was full of prepubescent boy energy and our black lab Willie was right there with it.  Willie is generally a shy dog and is particularly skittish around men.  But give him a couple of 12-year-old boys and he’s in heaven! 

Willie’s skittishness has curtailed his social skills, so when he does want to be social, he can tend to come off on the clumsy, nerdy end of the spectrum sometimes.  The boys were very tolerant, for the most part … except when Willie tried to hump them … which happened more often than I want to admit. 

Anyway – it was a great visit for Willie (and hopefully for the boys).  Since they left, I’ve noticed our poor Will looking longingly down the hill where they sledded.  He didn’t come up to my room, where he usually sleeps, last night.  My suspicion is that he wanted to be downstairs in case they came back … but that may be assigning more memory capacity to his lab brain than it actually possesses!

One of our activities during the visit was a bonfire on the hill behind our house.  It was an amazing conflagration … and one of the best parts has been the excuse to use that word over and over!  When I was setting it up on Saturday afternoon, I was amazed at the amount of deer poop scattered around the area.  (There are apple trees on the hill- and the deer often come there to feed.)  Here’s a photo of two recent visitors … taken last Wednesday, I believe.  (Thanks, Dewd!)

 Dewd’s Deer

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Something Green

A friend sent me some informaton about a site called Catalog Choice which lets you identify catalogs you want to stop receiving … and which apparantly actually WORKS!  I guess you select the catalog you want to cancel, enter your customer number from the catalog mailing label, and the site will contact the source … and voila.  Nifty!  Try it – and start your day feeling like you’ve done something positive for the planet!

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The Skinny on Your Zip … and Other Miscellany

My sister, who is a fairly regular supplier of interesting internet doohickeys, sent me this cool link for checking demographic data about your zipcode.  Mine’s 03224.

Meanwhile, if you want to elevate your blood pressure without exercising, read a little about the Westboro Baptist Church folks … who apparently plan to picket at Heath Ledger’s funeral.  Sad, that Fred Phelps‘ own gayness is so painfully repressed that he has to lash out in this way … and enlist all those other painfully repressed fools (mostly members of his extended family, it turns out) to support his efforts. 

Check out my new page (“Books, Books, Books”) with a Library Thing (another doohickey- this one picked up from Boltgirl on the Loose) embedded.  It’s a doohickey for cataloguing books from your library – with the capablity of making it public, adding reviews, ratings, etc.  Looks pretty cool, but I haven’t had time to explore it a whole lot yet.  I’m hoping there will be a way to make it useful with the bookgroup I’m in.  (We’re the Bookeaters … we meet over dinner, can you tell?)  I’m still trying to figure out how best to set up the page.

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Despicable? Duh!

This is just over the top enraging.  Why do we not have the will, the backbone, the integrity … to oust these despicable individuals?  I remember hours on the treadmill at my gym back in the winter of 2003, watching the run up to the war, feeling like it was all fabrication.  I remember being swayed slightly from my view when Colin Powell spoke out … thinking, “There must be something to this if HE’S saying it’s true.”

Meanwhile despicable individual #2 (or is that actually #1?) continues to speak out and monger war at one of the few places he’s sure of a warm reception … the Heritage Foundation.  He’s telling us we need to keep working together against the really, really scary evildoers (as opposed to the nicer evildoers who are “protecting” us while running this country into the ground). 

Thanks, Dick …. anything else we can do for you and your corporate cronies?  Immunity for the telecoms.  Immunity for Halliburton … and Blackwater.  Oh, and be sure to protect those pharmaceutical companies.  But please, please, please throw the book at the recipient of a benefit like Medicaid or SSDI or foodstamps who earns a little income on the side (to pay for heat, maybe) and doesn’t report it.  Despicable doesn’t begin to describe you folks. 

Human suffering intensifies, multiplies, deepens … while the safety net is dismantled piece by piece.  Pious platitudes mask hateful and divisive prejudices … and ultimately, with fear and small-mindedness dividing us, Corporate America just keeps running the show, unchecked and unimpeded.  And it is interesting, as described here, how the one candidate going up against the corporate interests is getting so little press.  Makes you wonder.

As I write I’m struck by the obvious implication that there is a hidden conspiracy of corporate interests that has taken over the offices of our government.  Conspiracy.  Hmmm … sounds suspiciously like what we hear from our government about the conspiracy of radical Islamist terrorists.  Am I spouting the same specious rhetoric that I so hate from the right? 

Bottom line, there’s no need to posit a conspiracy.  In fact, “conspiracy” actually gives too much credit to what is more likely just blind stupidity, greed, short-sightedness, lack of intellectual curiosity, narrow-mindednes, ruthlessness, etc.  Oh, and did I say greed?

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Three Poets in Winter

Last night I and hundreds of others in Concord, NH, witnessed an amazing reading of poetry by three United States Poets Laureate:  Maxine Kumin, Donald Hall, and Charles Simic.  Its remarkable to see and hear so much richness and virtuousity in one place … and even more remarkable to contemplate the fact shared by Mike Pride, editor of the Concord Monitor, who introduced the poets … all three of them live within 30 miles of Concord!

What is it about this granite and ice, I wonder.  The readings were wonderful, and each entirely individual.  Rooted in their collective 200-some years of experience, the words were well-crafted, lovingly honed gifts.  What an honor, on a January night, to sit in the presence of these aging masters – their presence at once so robust and so evanescent! 

It somehow reminded me of the two deer that were pointed out to me this past Monday, on the edge of the field outside our kitchen wondow.  There they were, big as life, browsing for something, anything, edible.  Looking, I saw them clearly … yet a moment before, they had been right there and I’d seen nothing but the woods, still and cold and unpopulated. 

My world feels more alive than it did before last night.  How could it not? There are three venerable Poets Laureate toiling out there in their poets’ houses somewhere, hardly noticed, but very nearby! 

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Computer Woes

I spent a good 3 hours yesterday fruitlessly trying to get to the bottom of an e-mail glitch that continues to hinder my communication with the outside world.  Can’t figure out what started it … but it’s reminded me of other times when my technological friend has become a huge and frustrating time drain. 

Those instances are few and far between, in my experience, but frustrating as hell.  I’ve learned to not pay too much attention to the way it can shake my confidence – which used to feel REALLY bad!  Now I “frame” the inevitable insecurities, rather than globalizing them, as I have in the past.  And rather than continue to invest time in a losing battle with this problem, I’ve also learned to walk away … coming back later, (and hopefully with a clearer, less emotionally frayed) head. 

 So for now I can’t send e-mail from my home account … and have no idea why.  Tonight I’ll get it figured out.  For now it’s time to let it go.

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And another thing …

I keep meaning to mention that Thursday was William Stafford’s birthday.  He was a wonderful poet, born in the town of Liberal, Kansas in 1914.  He died in 1993 and has in the habit of writing a poem a day.  On the day he died, his daily poem included the line: “‘You don’t have to be good,’ my mother said, ‘just be ready for what God sends.'”

One of my personal favorites is:

The Way It Is

There’s a thread you follow. It goes among
things that change.  But it doesn’t change.
People wonder about what you are pursuing.
You have to explain about the thread.
But it is hard for others to see.
While you hold it you can’t get lost.
Tragedies happen; people get hurt
or die; and you suffer and get old.
Nothing you do can stop time’s unfolding.
You don’t ever let go of the thread.

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